I regret ever taking up something. Its what you will hear off every smoker, it was the stupid road to go down, something you will always regret. After study today myself and the lads had a game of soccer. Today was the first time that I actually enjoyed the game, normally I find it really boring but it was actually great. Except for those damn lungs, throughout the whole game I kept thinking to myself “Why?? Why Ferghal?? You should have just said no to yourself!” But whats done is done, I suppose, until the Leaving Cert ends anyway. Or maybe its just because Im so unfit. I walk 2 miles everyday but its not intense, if I did some intense excercise everyday I would be able to keep up with the game and be able to move constantly.
Oh well, still listening to the Chilis album. What a beautiful album. Everyone should get it.
well, its been a while since I wrote anything here, lol I guess I actually had better things to do. ok not really. Walmart discriminates, they’re all gaybashers. my friends and I thought it would be cool if one of us put on a girls shirt and hit on guys, so we did. Mutt went up to a guy and asked for his number and he was cool, laughin about it and everything, then his gf freaked out and started yellin at us screamin “you guys are immature and you need to grow up, bla bla bla, you shouldent be harrassing customers bla bla” and I was trying to understand what her problem was so in the caos between mutt screamin “you’re a stupid gaybasher I hate you!” like a girl and her screamin “you’re so stupid! Grow up!” I was like “What the hell is wrong with you women, what did we do to offend you?” lol it was crazy, Goatmilk was just standin there laughin and she got the manager and he told us to stop or get out, so we decided to leave. so we were walkin down the parking lot screaming “Walmart discriminates! Walmart discriminates!” when some lady screamed “Faggot!”yeah, we thought it was funny, but mutt freaked and was screamin at her about how he was born this way and how badly he wishes he was gay. so then we went into CVS and started yellin at mutt for being gay and we got kicked out again. then while we were walkin home (about ten miles away) the cops pulled over. yeah, it was cool. they were like, “you’re not in trouble, bla bla, some people called, bla bla” but they were sayin I would have to go to Juvy cause they couldent get a hold of my mom. well in the end I got a ride from goatmilk, so yeah, it was cool. but then when I got home my mom was like “I got an interesting call” and so I decided to pretend I dident know what she was talkin about, thinkin i might be the cops, but instead it turned out to be from a friend who made an “obscene” call on her. so I was like, “I dont know what she was talkin about” and she was like “Well I know who did it and I reported it to the police” so im like “whatever” and I went to my room, then she mentioned it a little later and I just brushed it off, then she comes in my room a few minutes later and starts freakin on me because I dont seem to care. lol she’s such a bitch, honestly, I could care less, it was just a prank call and she took care of it anyways, but shes all, “you dont care if anyone harms me” and im like “what harm?” and so she just locked herself in her room. well I dident care until I woke up this mornng, cause our pump is broken and we cant take a shower, so until it gets fixed we had to use wipes, well she thought it wouldent be a problem if she just took the wipes and locked them in her room with her. I freaked. I kept my mouth shut, but I got a little surprise for her when I get home. so yeah, I couldent wash myself, but it dident matter, cause I dident really get dirty and the axe covers any bad smells. but yeah. I met a girl, good girl, she’s smart, beautiful, funny, and I just love hangin out with her. she’s respectable and easy to talk to, someone iv been waiting for to get over another girl who really fucked with me, but there was just one problenm, she’s my best friends sister. Big no no. He was bein a total dick about us. I cant even tell you, it was just ridiculous. I understand the whol Big brother thing, but it’s different when you start bein an asshole. So yeah, my life is bein a bitch. everything is so complicated. not to mention the OSS (Out of Scool Suspension) I got for saying the F word. 3 days! and the assistant princibal was bein nice cause he should give me 5. wtf? 5 days? I dont get 5 days for fighting, and all I said was one word, and it wasent even directed at anyone, I was just talkin to my friend! so yeah, I’m probably failing all my classes. wow, things are really crappy right now… oh well, what are you gonna do? the best I can at the moment, but still, that might not be enough. my mom is threatening to send me back to foster care if I keep getting in all this trouble… Kristina’s moving, along with Jesse… there is no way I have enough time in the school year to bring up my grades…I have no money and I dont know where I can get a job this summer…hmmm, things can only get so bad right? and I know it could be worse. God hates me….
By the way, the whole smoking thing and the breathing problem, you can still smoke, just a little less everyday, and while you walk, jog a little bit, and everyday, jog a little more. It helps a lot.
Dear ‘me’,
As you neglect to give a proper name, or even a pseudonym, I am forced to address you as ‘me’. I call myself “a concerned bystander” because as a long time ferghal.com enthusiast, I feel you are destroying it (even though you do add a certain pathetic sense of humour).
Meanwhile, there are a few things which I would like to draw your attention to:
-the correct spelling of the following words: shouldn’t, didn’t, wouldn’t, haven’t, hadn’t, isn’t and wasn’t. all others follow a similar structure.
-i’m, she’s, we’re, they’re, etc… are all abbreviations, and so must have apostrophes. pay special attention to “they’re”, as many people confuse it with “there” or “their”
-”… an “obscene†call on her” should read: “obscene call to her”
-”..the whol Big brother thing” should read: “the whole bigger brother thing”
-also, the reader of an expressive piece such as this responds badly to such contrived clichés as “god hates me…”, “Big no no”, and “life is bein a bitch.”
these being said i must commend your mastery of the apostrophe in the word “she’s”, but why not extend this courtesy to other abbreviations?
I do hope you take these light criticisms into account.
Yours, mildly respectfully,
Bystander.
You said it a concerned bystander!
hey ferg, this jackass hasnt left anymore messages has he? maybe it was something i said…
bystander.